Sometimes I wonder if I can handle all that God puts my way. It is said that God doesn't give you more than you can handle but can He misjudge? I'm sure it's wrong to say that because God is The Almighty, The Alpha and Omega but sometimes it makes me think.
Lately I've been seeing a lot of tiny baby's and it makes me think of Brady when he was first born. Take for instance a patient of mine just had a baby, ok his wife did, but go with it. The baby weighed 7lbs 13oz. Brady weighed 7lbs 14oz but seeing this baby I can't imagine Brady that size. Now is it because I see him every day and he's almost 20lbs now or is it because I had to much going on when he was that size? 2 weeks after I had him we moved, 12 hour road trip in temperatures that were soaring. Then 2 weeks later my dad and I had to go to TX because my Grandpa was dieing and he needed to see Brady, and I needed to see him. So another 12 hour road trip there and 12 hours back. All the while I am looking for a job because my husband has just gotten out of the Army and gone back to school. So I'm stressin about that. Ok, so we are in TX for a week and then home for 2 weeks and then we all went back to TX because it was only hours before my Grandpa was going to pass. So now my 7 week old son is back in the car for another 24 hour trip this time with 4 people and a dog in a car. SO SO crowded.
Now I get back and know that there is a therapist who wants to hire me but has yet to call me so I start that process all the while working at the hospital and trying to find a babysitter that would take infants and didn't cost me a small fortune.
So you see I was SO stressed and then had slight postpardum depression on top of it all. All of that makes me think that maybe God misjudged me and I really shouldn't have had all that stress but since I'm typing this and obviously made it through maybe, probably God DID know I could handle it because God is the all knowing.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
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